My Side

I'm looking at my reflection
the background doesn't match
realizing there is another side
Ripples drift across the image
What direction am I looking from?
I see my eyes, your eyes staring at me
Our hands are mirror images
They raise to face each other
But when they touch clarity is lost
All I see now is sky and trees floating
I reach through and close my hand
It is filled with nothing but earth
I can see you but I can't feel you

Your Burden

The last few grains of sand are slipping
In your hour glass of patience
My heart feels its tipping on the edge
Tears are fighting the weight that’s building
With every thing you said
¿Por que este tortura?
She cries but no one’s listening
I thought I was a friend that’s true
I thought that you would appreciate
Everything I do for you.
But here I am alone and dying
Screaming life is so unfair
Everything that I have given
Under the circumstances, you don’t even care.
Gravity is taking over, let all things fall that must
After all the second chances
By now you should know enough
You only hurt the ones you love

Queen of broken hearts

Once life dealt a hand to hold
But circumstances led to fold
Now memories are growing old
Memories are growing old
My two cents led to none
So I gambled on another one
And though it seems that I have won
The jokers will have all the fun
I now hold the King of Spades
Or he holds me? It’s hard to say
Cashing in he’s getting paid
It’s hard to read his poker face
But just as I should go all in
The dealer hands out one more sin
He’s bluffing and I’m down again
For aces you lose everything.

Rocks

When you look in my eyes
Do you like what you see?
Is there anyone else with
vision like me?
Do you wish I was high
Like her when she needs
When she loves you and thinks
You can secretly be
Like underground springs
In a cave of deceit
Washing away like the
Rocks ‘neath her feet
In her eyes, on her hands
When she takes the receipt
Will you go if she takes you
To her secret retreat?
She’s not even there
And still it’s discrete.
When you look in my eyes
Can you see my defeat?

Moss

I spent too much time
Waiting for you, Waiting in line
Pushing behind
To the back of my mind
All the little things you say
Watching the hours fade away
Hanging on to doubtful fate
And every time I am too late
The past creeps back and kills surprise
That the plans we make are only lies
Tangled up in your disguise
A hero who tends to every cry
And though your heart is made of gold
The burden of your heavy load
Is that to friends which you bestow
There's no time for me I'm told
We're like a rock that has no roll
A precious stone that's growing mold
I give my heart, it can't be sold
It must be made of fools gold

Logic

Now the picture lies in pieces
like a puzzle on the floor
A shape my heart cannot distinguish
'cause with my mind it is at war
Yesterday i left my feelings lying at the door
Today I still can't find equations
that will tell me what love's for

Atlantis

With bricks of sand from this land

we build our homes with our hands

taller and taller we reach for the clouds protected by ocean view all around

golden by day, aqua by night

mysterious and wonderful from bird's eye sight.

Glorious and free, towering over the trees nothing can bring us to our knees

when the wind begins to howl

when the earth begins to quake

when the waves come crashing down

our city she will take

then leave the world as it was

fish below and birds above

under the blue sky clear

some sailors claim there's nothing here

but those who dive beneath the deep

know the soul can never sleep

Underwater they can breathe

they find the city in the sea.

Picese

You are sailing in her mind
searching for a treasure so impossible to find
deep, dark, never ending sea
keep on sailing, keep on sailing but you never can find me.

she is all around you
and she whispers in your ear
your pleasure, your pain,
the sound of waves that you fear

something magical and mystical
something like white and green and blue
something dangerous and risky
like the darkness pouring over you

You open your eyes into her gaze
Dishonesty she plays the way that Sparrow plays
She waves to you and blows a salty kiss
while your punishments lie at the bottom in your broken ship.

You walk the plank, you fall within
your pride is like a wounded fin, it's sink or swim
Drifting in her mind, all your sails torn
At the mercy of the water, slain by the double sward.

Your Fatal Mistake

Mountain road, you hear the hum

you see the lights as they come

you take a step and choose to run

Your fatal mistake

The cool breeze off the creek

The river rock beneath your feet

Before the moment we should meet

before your fatal mistake

Outside the glass a mountain view

then from the trees a glimpse of you

a second too long and nothing to do

before your fatal mistake

Above the clouds are berries sweet

where the salmon are a plenty treat

the time was right for you to eat

after your fatal mistake

Highway

Hands on the wheel
cruising highway speed, but
this car isn't moving
half as fast as me.
In the review mirror
through to empty eyes,
hollow
baby,if that's what you think,
then follow me inside.
Can't you feel your head
as you strain to hold it high?
Holding back your tears
you seem very dignified.
Feel your lips grinning
as your see the world spinning
and the wheels leave the concrete for the sky.
Don't worry you won't feel it
till the moment you awake
move along, moving on, and never touch the breaks.
Sit beside me, take a ride,
put your hand on mine,
you feel the warmth, you feel the blood,
the nothing on the inside.
Baby, if I'm empty
then there's nothing to disguise
And if you really feel that way
then there's no reason to cry
When you're driving you are dreaming
and I watch without a feeling
Knowing I'll feel nothing
till the moment I awake.
By then there's nothing you can do
but learn from your mistakesmove along, moving on, and never touch the breaks

Canadian

Call your flag your history

And forget about the life that you will

Never read in the pages of a book, while I take a look

Around and all I see are faces, all of different places

Does any thing here belong to me? in the mirror

I am invisible, here comes along 

Another one I learn I'll never be, I listen patiently

Never bound and never free, i wonder where is me

Dessiner

Today was a spiral day

A flower day

An intricate design

Picking petals

One by one

Hoping you were mine

Out of a tear

And into a leaf

Growing and wilting

Hoping but brief

Today was a blossom day

A wistful day

Clairvoyant in rhyme

Floating, fluttering

One by one

Illustrating pine

The Chemist

From purple to clear

The proof is right here

In this conical flask

Where God is unmasked

The complex illusion

Simple as oxalic acid diffusion

Revealing a sunset like fate

For the permanganate

No, you don’t have to look

It’s right in the book

Right down to kinetics

and the conservation of energetics

Never made never gone

The reaction goes on

The world on a plate

Without the heat of debate

The redox becomes clear

I believe God is here.

Timido

Sonre
Eres mi tragedia
testigo a mi debilidad
la muerte de mi fantasia
entre realidad
en el final de la tarde
‘Estes contento?

Your Love is Incomplete

Love is no conviction
But I guess that’s hard to see
When you want it so bad
That you’ll do anything
To keep them from being free
Love is so unselfish
But all you think about is you
Covering your ears’ wishing it weren’t the truth.
Love is not jealous
Love wants to smile
But smiling’s hard to do
When you’re living in denile.
Accept the truth. Set me free.
Your love is crucifying me.
Love is like a fire,
It needs room to breath
But warmth is hard to find
When you smother out the heat
Real love does not compete.
Cold words, cold heart Your love is incomplete.

8:00 Class in Calgary

back up in the road
with my civic, put my foot up on
the gas gotta give it,
clocks ticking, roads slippin
gotta make it to my physics
im late and i forgot to scrape
can't see a thing, and the traffics got me flippin

No End and No Center

When I close my eyes I see the universe.
I see what seems impossible to imagine.
An extensive blackness spreading out in all directions, never ending.
Because I am restricted to my visual perception and bound by the logic in my mind, it is difficult to imagine that the darkness wraps around me and does not begin in front of my eyes. Nor am I in the middle of this vast expanse of nothing, in any position that I can assume, because when something has no end, and no beggining, how can it have a center?

Gemini Twins

When I look in your eyes I see a clever disguise
I see blackness and coldness and stone
I see charcoal and smoke and a heart that's been broke
and a man insecure and alone.
But like dusty glass, I polish and look past
at the world that he's left behind.
exotic sights, lively music, and passionate nights
and I see how much more's on his mind.
But dark clouds in his vision, direct his decisions,
as he seeks for the cure to his sorrow
then easy to trust, he hands himself over to lust
thinking he'll be happy tomorrow.
but the fire won't burn, you have something to learn
love doesn't start in the rain.
dry up your tears and when the storm clears
in your eyes I will look for a flame.

Blue Soul

You are the place that I see in your eyes where endless water meets endless sky Dazzled by stars and clouds that drift by.

 Note: Have you ever looked at a person's eyes? I mean actually looked at them as though they were art work and imagined, based on the colour and designs, and maybe even on the person's personality, what their soul would look like if you painted it, or expressed it some way visually? Try it some day.

Pawn

You are my pawn

I move you around

I move you between

Me and the ground

as I fall and I fall

Spiraling down

Tired at the U of C

We met eachother in our messed up worlds when i saw you sleeping by the window. I was sleeping too, though I was so much more awake than you. We talked for a long time and decided what to do, we planned to run away. Then as I watched you blink your eyes in the window gleam, I wished for just a moment that it wasnt all a dream.

*Dedicated to the random guy sleeping in Science B

Dagger

I see the dagger in your eyes

And feel the point against my spine

Your lips are curled with desire

As you toss another into the fire

One more thing to do without

One less friend to worry about

Secrets

There will always be something left unsaid No matter how many things you say

Like skeletons behind a door

In your mind is a shallow grave

There will always be chains holding those words

Just at the tip of your tongue

The screams will echo inside your head

By the rise and the fall of your lung

There will always be fingers scratching the glass

Reflections in your troubled eyes

Behind your smile a frantic burden

The restless ghosts you hold inside

Niave

"She sees right through me everytime, 

and I know she don't believe my lies,

but the secret stays behind her lips,

I like the patience in her eyes. " 

This is what I wish you thought when you spoke to me, 

instead you carry on believing that I'm believing each sentence that you speak, like I am so naive.

I go on saying nothing

I go on keeping you believing

that your disguise is still deceiving

but inside all I'm feeling are your lies

It's a shame you have to change for me. 

I'm not blind to your duplicity,

so peel away your invisibility. 

"She's perfect,

she's the only one who knows my false identity.

If she only knew how much it meant to me,"

is what I wish that you were thinking everytime you vent to me.

The Butterfly's Wing

Your heart knows a lie

When your mind's being sly

You know you can run

But you can't ever hide.

One day you'll find yourself thinking Something absurd

Your ears will long for a whispering word And your fingers will ache to touch their skin

And lustful frustration will start building within

And you'll wish for a moment to be in their embrace

But you'll catch yourself and you'll try to erase

A memory that taunts you like snow in the spring

You'll try and get rid of the butterfly's wing you'll blink away hearts that appear in your eyes 

and brush away clouds from a sidewalk of sky

but after all this no matter how hard you try,

your heart always knows what your mind will deny

Mexico

The water washed the white sand

With a clear sigh from the sea

I lay upon a lounge chair

Letting the sun rays rest on me

I listened to the birds

Singing in a tropic tree

The breeze rustled through the palms

And lifted away the heat

At night the stars were clear

From a different point of view

While music filled my ears

With a foreign tune

I sat in perfect bliss

Drinking coloda ‘neath the moon

How the teatro lights were vivid’

I know I won’t forget them soon

As night pushed on, the crickets sang

Under the great cabana

The dancing began

We sipped our drinks

And the live band played

While on the porch, by a lizard,

The hammock swayed.

Onus Silk

Here lies my twisted fate
Beneath the web I’ve spun
though I fear too late
might it never come undone.
His hands are spiders feet
they brush past unstuck.
and to my own defeat
it could be I’m out of luck.
It seems I’ve caught a fly,
a pathetic thing indeed
His eyes reflect the sky
But the sky he cannot see.
Sometimes in the early fair
the dew drops all aline
floating in the crisp morn air
They take away the sight
He’s wrapped in silky blankets
but his life hangs by a thread
Once my handsome spider comes
I fear he will be dead.

Broken Record

The voices in my head are getting louder every day
they circle in an endless loop of things that people say.
My brain is filled with jumble to the very brim,
and when things are most confusing
they say ‘go hit the gym.’
And then when time is wasted running
all my fears away,
I come home to voices that play and then replay.
Life’s become a tick that has settled in my skin.
It nags at me to itch it but then it buries farther in.
And when I scream in pain they tell me to relax
and then they start the record player
and it plays as though its scratched.
I’m trying to keep up and do what is right
but the jumble in my brain
is blurring up my sight.
My head’s imploding
My mind’s exploding
I can’t seem to seize the day
I’m only this close to the edge,
and that’s not far away.
Stop and smell the roses
before you finally go insane
and wish you’d spent your time
accomplishing you goals.
because there's no time to allay.

It May Take Some Time

It may take some time

To heal up this mind

But when you're not here

The damage will be less

Because It seems I can't live without you

And even if I'd hoped to

The wound is too deep

This I must confess

That Out of every guy

It's you that makes me cry

And you that's in my heart

And in my head

So Forgive me for this day

I'll forgive myself someday

It'll never hurt again

Once you’re dead.

Here’s a toast to future days

My knife the glass that I raise

Goodbye my friend, it’s not the end

We will meet again someday.

She and Hope

She makes a wish on every star,

His picture in her mind

And every tear she sheds for him

Each tear makes her blind.

She waits at home all alone.

She hopes one day he'll call

But never moving, ever still

She waits behind a wall.

He lives his days without a trace,

Without a thought of her.

He continues on his life, she's wrong

And nothing ever stirs.

He'll never know her love

That she buries deep inside.

He'll never know she loves him.

For this inside she cries.

Pretend

You like to see through your blind eyes.

You make yourself believe your lies.

Living in a pseudo life,

brushing truth aside.

You know it's all inside your mind,

but you let yourself believe it's real.

Yourself is never so unkind,

to judge the way you feel.

Deep down you know you're wrong,

but you don't want that to matter.

Your mind becomes a fun house mirror. What happens when it shatters?

Is it when the truth sets in,

And your illusion falls apart?

What you had was never there. 

You gave yourself a broken heart.

2nd Best Again

I can feel all the jealousy rising to the top. When you tell me all the things you love about her.

All these things you say I realize I’m not.

And I know you didn't mean to rub it in,

It's just that you can't stop thinking about her.

I know that I’m important to you.

Without me, no one would care.

And then when all goes up in flames,

There wouldn't be a shoulder there.

I know I'm just a friend.

I feel second best again.

Why do you come to me?

Did she break your heart again?

I will comfort you,

Though I know it's not the end.

And she'll keep playing with your mind,

And you'll fall cause you're so blind.

And I'll wait here and catch you

like I always do.

Then after all your tears are cried

You tell me why you can't let go

And I think of what would happen

If I only let you know

That it means a lot to be your friend

But put in this position

I feel second best again.

The Hunter has become the Prey

A sorry sight to see you here

Weak and unprepared

Shivering in the rain

You act as though you're scared

But what could you be frightened of?

Why, it couldn't be of me.

A lowly harmless spec of dust

Inferior to thee?

Perhaps you fear a dire seed

You planted in your reign.

You fear the torment you inflict

Will haunt you in the end.

You plead pathetically for mercy.

Calling me your friend.

You say that you alone

Are the one on which that I depend.

But I remember all those nights

The blood, the sweat and tears

I remember being nothing

And now that's what you fear.

You realize I'm unforgiving

And your life will not be spared today.

The tables have been turned

The hunter has become the prey

PNotes: This poem was inspired by the short story "The Most Dangerous Game" by Richard Connell. You can read that story --->HERE. TOP